I’ve been at this for a week now. A recap, I went from a job where I was basically doing things I knew how to do in a stable and comfortable environment to something more rapid and fluid environment focusing on things I’ve never focused on before.
I’m not great with change.
Over the course of my first week, I filled out my paperwork, had a one-on-one with my manager, a team meeting, an end-of-quarter all hands, and started AWS training. Somehow I found the time to convince myself that I didn’t know what I was doing.
I have been there a week.
I had to explain to myself what Impostor Syndrome was before I realized what a textbook example of it this was. I felt bad because I wasn’t full speed in a new field less than a week in. It’s ridiculous, I know.
I also felt bad that I couldn’t think of a good tech talk topic. I’ve never given one. So of course I don’t know.
What doesn’t help is also having to adjust to working Remote. Thankfully their company’s Slack is ACTIVE. They love to talk about anything and everything, and chat rooms are my wheelhouse. It’s really helped me get comfortable.
So now I’m going to take a breath. Figure it out.
Week 2 will be wrecked by the Quarterly, which I guess is a team building trip every quarter. I’m super excited and nervous to meet everyone I only know from Slack. It’s going slow, but I think I’ll like it.